And deep down inside...

Motto:
Let me remind you esto no es un escrito de odio. No lo es. Solo me quero recordar del pasado incerto que hemos compartido. Ame esse niño perdido. Lo juro, lo ame. Pero no lo voy amar nunca mas.


It is sufficiently clear that all things are changed, and nothing really perishes, and that the sum of matter remains absolutely the same. Yet, the instability of the teenage mind begs to differ.

I have reached the most hidden thoughts, I have reaches dreams that rip your soul into tiny, tiny pieces. To be able to lift yourself up when others throw you to the ground, to be able to believe when others lie to you, to be able to keep what others would throw away, to still be warm even though "outside" is raining, to still know how to smile even though you're heart's crying, this is what keeps you alive.

The right word was spelt accidentally, but it made me realize what this is all about and why am I running away. The word was "limitation". I see my life in stages each dominated by aberrant soundtracks which keep unwinding in my emotionally-unstable and easily-manipulated mind.

I hate him. I hate him till the point of crying. I hate him because I feel I have given up happiness when I gave up him. He has taken away with him every twinge of my bleeding heart. Maybe that's why I feel so empty.

Except the fact that my heart is dying with each breath I take, there's nothing left to say. And that's probably because im not in love with you anymore. My God.. it really happened... I really broke that thin line that still held us together.

You are a monster. A monster, I say. And please remember esso no es un escrito de odio. No, i pronouce these words with fear and not anger.

You scare me... I honestly hate you, and yet, I can still slide away deep into my dreams. And nothing can shake the peace that surrounds the small oasis hidden inside the depth of my soul. Not even your harshest words. Not even your most beastly behaviour. Nothing you do can ever hurt me.

You have lost your best friend and the only person who truly loved you. I haven't lost anything.