IN MEMORIUM

" I'll never forget those moments... she was that woman that could silently kill you with a smile on her face.

    I'd love it when she'd get out of the shower... that smell I'll never forget... milk and honey.. so pure and innocent, it'd drive me nuts. She'd never wipe herself, she'd just lay in my bed, still wet, wrapped in a soft towel,  with her head on my pillow, holding it tight, as if she'd try to find me through the sheets.. and I'd kiss her back and neck and she'd play with my hair, laughing in such a cheeky way it'd turn me on so badly.
    She had the softest skin I've ever touched... the softest... i loved holding her, right before she'd put her lotion on, it always felt better touching her skin, but that lotion used to be such a huge aphrodisiac..you just could not resist that girl.. no matter how hard you'd try... 

She had the most beautiful eyes ... the biggest, greenest eyes... you'd completely lose yourself in them.. they'd have this special type of attractiveness, so much that I'd spend hours and hours just looking at her, just looking, without saying a single word... and she always understood me, she'd just smile back at me...
   
Oh, how i loved her touch... how i loved those nights when she'd fall asleep on my chest, holding me so tight as if it'd be our last night together.. but what i most loved about her was how she'd always kiss my body...at night, even though sleepy, whenever her lips would meet my skin, she'd kiss me... she'd kiss my nose, my chest, my arms, my fingers... anything.. anything she felt belonged to me, she kissed... she was the most pure girl I've ever known... we've spent so many nights together,  and never had sex... she just knew  how to please me in the most amazing ways that I've never really felt the need for more... she'd given me so much of her, so much of everything she represents that never did I need more...

How I'll miss you, my sweetest fantasy... you'll forever be the most amazing girl I've ever had... "

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" me dueles.
Estamos llorando porque ninguno de los dos puede creer que nos quisimos tanto.
Yo te amo, siempre lo hare.
Porfavor, no reniegues porque me inspiras.
Si lees bien, en mi blog, siempre concluyo diciendo que te amo. Y lo hago, te amo.
No es que quiera sentirme poderoso, queria que lo repitieras para que de una vez por todas te des cuenta de que me quieres y yo necesitaba saber que me querias. Sabes lo que significa dedicar todo tu arte a una sola persona y no saber si esta siente lo mismo por ti?

Te he dedicado tanto Lavinia. Me he dedicado.
Te confese que nadie puede matarme y entre lagrimas te digo "you kill me".
Ni ella, y la quiero, ni nadie puede afectarme de la forma como un insulto tuyo lo hace.

Si quieres irte de mi vida, hazlo pero no te burles como lo estas haciendo.

Deja de burlarte de mi porque te necesite. Deja de burlarte de mi por lo debil que soy al no poder eliminarte. Deja de reirte de mis lagrimas. Deja de imaginarme como un ogro cuando sabes que muero por un beso tuyo. Y a la mierda si no me crees. Al carajo con todo esta tormenta innecesaria. En vano dejas que mis manos tiemblen y que el sol permanezca oculto todo el tiempo que no estas. En vano, sin razones. Y te amo.

Yo nunca fui un monstruo, no lo soy.
Por favor, no es broma, esto no es un juego.
Ya no quiero que sufras ni yo sufrir.
Solo quiero que seas feliz y que entiendas que estaba dispuesto a gastar lo necesario para llegar a ti porque eres muy diferente a todo lo que conosco. Y esto no es casualidad.

Si llega la oportunidad, bienvenida.
Sino, que nos quede el recuerdo y las emociones vertidas. El recuerdo de saber que el amor existe. Y el amor verdadero no sabe de distancias.









True love waits, see you soon."