the little boy that changed my life

I think I met him almost three years ago. I met him randomly, in a moment of my life when I was at the beginning of the road, but already lost.

    I just got out of a thing I used to call "relationship" back then, and I thought I was feeling really depressed about it. Haha. Only later did I learn the true meaning of pain.

    He was completely caught up by me... instantly. And I loved it. To be honest, I never loved him, I just loved the way he loved me.The way he adored everything about me. The way he'd think of me day and night. The way he'd email me three times a day although we'd spend hours upon hours chatting.

    He loved me. And I loved being loved. That was the only reason things went well...
    And then it happened. Something shook  my world. He proposed. ... He had just come from a trip to Turkey, I think, and i remember him missing me terribly. I remember what he said as soon as he got home:
" Baby these 15 days in Turkey weighted more than 15 years of my life just waiting to talk to you [...] I guess what Im trying to say is... Lavinia, will you marry me? "

    That was the moment. The moment that made everything change. The little boy that was crazy about me became the man who wanted to be my child's father. [At least in my mind.. ]

    That's when I started loving him. And planning. And wishing. And hoping. Not because my feelings changed, but because I realised how serious he was. It's never a good idea to tell a woman she's the most precious thing you have, she'll get cocky. Just tell her she's special. She's special.

    I felt special. In my mind I was already picking the kids' names. Because HE WAS SERIOUS. Because he was no longer a little boy getting his first taste of true love. He was this man that wanted to plan his whole life with me. And it was something he had thought about all that time he was away.

    [I loved it. Every second of our short marriage.]

    But like everything in life, nothing's eternal. Especially not love. And when the dream is over, you don't have anything else to do but smile and move on...  or..
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...... or ....
maybe email that little boy again.





* Then again, nevermind. It's enough just to know that ..
   ..... The BEST things in life are FREE... *